On this day I am thinking of three colors.
Red, White, and Blue.
Red makes me think of hearts.
Hearts make me think of love.
And my heart is full of love for my family, my friends, and my God.
Today, my red heart turned blue when I heard the news from a friend
that a beloved family member passed away today.
He was only five years old.
He was holding on for a bit,
but is now gone from every ones life forever.
And though we know he is in a better world, we are still filled with grief.
I got the news at 4:00am this morning.
My heart was heavy with sadness and I had a troublesome, burdened, sleepless night.
I can not even fathom the thoughts, emotions, and sadness, the family must be feeling.
I was wordless and I cried.
And do cry, almost every time I think about it.
All children have a special place in my heart.
Today, I held my kids a little longer and a lot tighter than usual.
All the little things that usually bother me, like clothes left in the floor,
toys strewn across the bedroom, the thumb sucking, not finishing their meals...
none of those things seem to matter at all today.
All those things appear to be pathetically silly in retrospect.
All that matters is right here. Right now.
My beautiful girls, healthy, alive, and happy beside me.
There is a time to be still and thankful.
And that time is now.
It is a very sobering and gripping thing to hear of the loss of a child.
Children are so authentic and innocent.
If I could pick a color to represent the soul of a child.
I would choose a white crayon.
To me, white represents everything clean, pure, and untainted.
So this year, as we celebrate our fourth of July weekend,
I will be humbly thankful.
Full of genuine love and appreciation
for my family, my friends, and especially for our children.
I am keenly aware today of my blessings,
not just for my freedoms, my country, and my family,
but for the grace, mercy, and favor that the Lord has given me today.
For today, I have my children.
Safe. Sound. And Saved by Gods grace.
Thank You Lord.
|Just one of the children I love. Such sweet blue eyes.|
My very deepest condolences and all my love go out to the family today.