Sunday, March 4, 2012

I Am Weak But He Is Strong

Recently, I read a blog post, "The Overachiever",
 from one of my favorite wedding photographers.
The post was about comparing yourself to others.
I was so moved by this writing, in fact, that I wanted to talk a bit
about my struggles with this same issue.

 It can be a problem for me sometimes...
 especially if I'm not in the Word,
 or if I'm not getting that much needed quiet time
on a daily basis, like I know I should be getting.

It can happen in any aspect of my life, if I let it...
Whether it be in homeschooling the kids, comparing myself to other moms,
or within my passion for photography.
For me, often they are people I admire and if I'm not careful,
I can easily get discouraged and begin thinking about
 how I wish I was as good, smart, or talented as another person, or
 "Oh man, she is so smart and such an incredible teacher...
 will my kids ever be as smart as hers are???"...
 "My photography will never be as good as hers,
 I just don't have those resources and I certainly don't have the time!"

I have actually thought these thoughts... isn't it horrible???
Shame on me!

I know I have talked about the different personality types before,
 from one of my favorite books Personality Plus,
 and I will mention it again because
 I think that a persons personality has so much to do with the way an individual thinks
and to what degree each person may or may not be affected.
If you haven't read this book, it's an easy and fun read,
and also, it can be helpful in life in general.
I highly recommend it!

My husband likes to joke. He says when I talk about my personality type,
that my favorite part in the words "Perfect Melancholy" is the word "Perfect"!
Hehehe... he's such a wise guy!

 Now, it is partly because of this melancholy personality type that I am so tough on myself.
For me, the words from the quote "You are your own worst critic!" rings entirely true.
But, I do tend to beat myself up sometimes...
and as Katelyn says in the blog post I was referring to earlier,
it is very unhealthy!  

But hey, I find that if I just put my faith entirely in Him,
 then I really don't have to think about where I am,
should be, or wish I were, but rather, just sit back, enjoy the ride,
 knowing that, hey, it isn't me anyway, but, it's Him in me!
It's always about HIM!

And if I can remember that, then there isn't anything to fear.

Now, that's not to say I'm not always trying to improve, because that is a must.
And anyone who wants to grow, knows there must be change.
The word tells us, "And do not be conformed to this world,
 but be transformed by the renewing of your mind,
that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God."

Our thoughts are very powerful, they are what drive us to action or "not to" action...
an action will determine a habit, and then that habit will determine a future.

I am reminded of the bible verse I read a few mornings ago written by the Apostle Paul;
And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

You see, it is in our weakness that the Lord can shine through us,
because when there is success and growth in us, if we will give Him the honor for it,
then His strength can be seen because we know that we could never have done it without Him.
His grace is sufficient and His love always amazes me!

When I start thinking those bad thoughts and beating myself up, I just remember;
There is only one Jenny like me in this world,
 and I have to be the best ME I can be.

 No one else has my life, my husband, my kids,
my relationship with my Lord, my calender...
only I do, so why would I ever want to be like someone else,
or try to be like ANY one else???

I am where I am in life because of two things;
 God's perfect plan for my life, and my every day choices.

Maybe you can relate, maybe not...

1 comment:

  1. the best one yet! i so agree, you ARE the only Jenny!! lol - praise the lord for that, LOL, just kidding. love you! see you soon.


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